Every day of life is a new stage, a new day to shape who we are. And every year a time of change, but if you follow your heart and values, and stay true to you, you’ll grow and flourish. And it’s really important that every day you meet yourself where you’re at. Here are five times I’m so glad I met my closeted trans self where he was at.
When I was two my twin sister Alice decided her favourite teddy was a girl, so I naturally presumed your favourite teddy was the same gender as yourself and made my teddy Puddle (a duck) a boy.
Around the age of six I decided my favourite barbie doll was a boy, so I found the shortest pair of barbie shorts and put the Velcro at the front to make a ‘fly’, creating what I pretended where his boxer shorts.
When I was six, I’d hide in my bedroom and put a ball of socks in my underwear to create a bulge, pretending I had a dick, that was the first time I felt really recognisable gender euphoria.
When I was eleven, I was so jealous that men could stand to piss, I used my artistic talents to secretly illustrate my favourite AMAB fictional characters taking a piss standing up.
And when I was sixteen, I dressed up as Freddie Mercury at Live Aid for Halloween and I drew a black moustache on with eyeliner, I was so disappointed it easily wiped off at the end of the night.
Now these are just a few of many times I met my closeted self where he was at, but the most important thing about this, is that it is about kindness. Kindness to yourself and by being kind to yourself you allow room for growth and happiness, two of the most fulfilling things in life.
*Names are changed for privacy reasons
